Human hands are complex, intricate and intimately part of who we are and who we become. One of my mentors once told me “hands are the gateway to the soul.” I’ve often been enamored by beautiful eyes, always considering them the gateway to one’s soul. The stunning colors of the iris, the contrast of solid black and then brilliant white; staring into the human eyes can make your heart skip a beat. This is not the same feeling attached typically when you look at your wife’s, husband’s, childrens’, parents’, or even your own hands. But have you ever held someone’s hand and thought what those hands have held, touched — felt. How many hearts had they comforted? How many hands had they held? How many lives had they changed? Your hands give you a sense of identity, a means to give, to receive. A way to create, to change. Each hand being different than another, each hand the gateway to a soul.
My life will change soon. As I close a long chapter of surgical training, my reflection on my own hands has changed significantly. I see them aging, but strengthening. The callouses forming, the work increasing — the responsibility they hold growing. Transitioning from my residency to the next step — a hand surgery fellowship — I will not only continue training my hands to perform and function in a precise manner, the delicate hands of others will be held in my own. They will look upon me to help their hands moments of need, to regain what injury, illness, time has taken from them. The ultimate responsibility, the ultimate trust. A father’s hand — unkempt, calloused, broken — needing to provide a life for his family. A mother’s hand — slender, fragile, powerful — still holding her baby despite the overwhelming agony of pain. A child’s hand — chubby, curious, limitless — deformed by circumstance, genetics — but beautiful and capable nonetheless. I will hold these hands in my own, and I will care for these hands as my own.
As hands are the gateway to the soul, time is the gatekeeper to change. Time changes us all, for better or worse. We are all at the mercy of time, something that our minds — or hands– can never fully grasp. Youth turns to senescence, innocence turns to maturity — life turns to death. The natural progression of every human, every life. Although our own mortality is a terrifying thought, the impact your life can have may carry on through the generations of life. Human hands across time have shown love, and hate. Peace, and war. Both beautifully created, and heartbreakingly destroyed. Every hand I touch, every hand I restore — repair, I am taken back by how they have changed the past, and how they may continue to change future. Every incision, every stitch, I wonder — what will these hands create, change, impact? Hands of a fathers, mothers, sons and daughters — hands of time.
“As long as you are standing, give a hand to those who have fallen” — Unknown